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10 down.

3 Feb

gee wiz! did i really just do that?!

Looking at the scale on Tuesday I was a little shocked- could I REALLY be 10 lbs down? I’ve never been able to do that in all the years I’ve been trying to lose weight. I’m not quite sure what is different this time- could it be that I’m not doing WeightWatchers or some other weight loss group? Could it be that I’ve made some great friends at my new job who are active and like going to our daily workout classes? Or could it be that I am at a point in my life where enough is enough and I’m just ready for a change? Probably all of the above to some extent. But I have to say it hasn’t been very hard but I’ve dramatically reduced portion size and hit the gym pretty much every day (oh, and cut out beer almost completely- I say almost because I had this amazing bourbon barrel beer last night that was to die for. Can’t pass that up!) I’ve also been using a free site that helps plan out your weight loss goals. Say you want to lose 30 lbs, you can set your age, weight, goal weight and time frame and they’ll tell you how many calories you should have per day in order to meet your weekly and overall goals. Super easy and it really helps to see where your daily calories come from. For me, keeping track online is a whole lot easier than writing it in a journal or having to calculate cals. With, it’s all right there and you can calculate everything based on portion size, food type, and they have tons of branded foods so you can be really accurate.

I must say that it’s a bit of a confidence booster when your jeans are a little looser and you can see your cheek bones. Although, part of this glow I’ve had lately could be contributed to a certain gentleman I’ve been cavorting with. Whether it turns into something or not, it’s certainly been fun to feel like an attractive, special woman. Thanks GJ 😉

Moral of the story? Taking action to change your life is a good thing. Whether it’s changing relationships, career paths, lifestyles, etc., taking charge of who you are and what you want your life to look like is one of the most liberating things a gal could do. Sure change is scary and different, but oh so worth it in the end. I’ve started to head down this long path to a healthier me and I know it will be hard at times, but the feeling I have just knowing that I’m doing something about it is propelling me forward. You can do it!




Hell yeah!

16 Nov

I stumbled upon this article today. I really love it- it’s maybe a tad on the feminist side, but I love it nonetheless. I feel like we put so much pressure on ourselves as women to look like the girls on Gossip Girl or on 90210 when in actuality, that’s not realistic. There’s so much pressure to LOSE LOSE LOSE that we lose sight of the fact that working out should be a way to build your body up; build muscle, run harder, stretch further. Making sure that your body is healthy and working right. I wish there was less focus on getting that perfect bikini bod and more focus on putting good nutritional foods into your mouth to nourish your body and more emphasis on physical activity that not only enriches your body, but enriches your lives. Exercise should be fun! I’ve always had a problem with this. Exercise has always been

I love skiing!

a chore or an expected activity that would get me into good colleges. I’ve never had a healthy relationship with working out and I would really like to start working on that. I mean, running is hard and it takes a while to get into. But I know I like it when I do it, I just put pressure on myself that working out has to be this big huge all-out sweat fest or nothing happens. I mean, I love being athletic. It’s one of the things I miss most being overweight. I still try to be athletic but it doesn’t come as easy so therefore I do less of it. I love skiing, skating, hiking, kayaking, boot hockey, broomball, bowling, tennis, the list goes on and on! I just need to get in a mindset that moving my body should be fun and not a chore. I should be excited to get out after work and do something to move my body. The question is, how do I start this

And love hiking...especially with my sisters

healthy movement relationship? I know that mentally I’m held back by my fear of working out and not seeing results but I have to let go of that control and just go for it. I was tell Vanessa the other day that I’ve recently reached quite a nice place: a new job, a new apartment, and a good relationship with friends and family. I feel like my life is coming into it’s own but the one thing that I’m failing at is this weight loss. So the other day I felt this calm come over me- like I knew exactly what I needed to do to make this work. I felt a calm about food and felt excited about moving my body and the possibilities I have for myself athletically. If I focus on that, both healthy relationship with food and working out, I think I can see some results. I’m on my own and only I can make this decision for myself. I choose to have my healthy relationships start now. When will yours start?



Why Weight?

28 Oct

I started a new job this week, woot woot! It’s awesome. One of the best things is being surrounded by young, fit people who take pride in how they look and how they dress (but not to an obnoxious point). It’s great- health and nutrition are definitely focused on here, having a work out gym AND training classes provided for us every day. The communal snacks are healthy too- the fridge stocked with milk, fruit and light cheese snacks and the dry snacks consisting of nuts and dried fruit, light crackers and granola. another nice thing is that they encourage taking an hour to an hour and half each day for exercise- everyone does it. talk about awesome!! and i DONT want to be the one that’s eating all the time so there’s some peer pressure that will keep the snacking down.

anyways, lucky for me, i’m here just in time for this “Why Weight” challenge. Pretty much what you’re thinking, biggest loser-style 6 week weight loss challenge where you are in teams of 4 and the the team with the biggest % loss wins (not strict lbs. but %

looks like santa may need a lil help before the holidays...mrs. clause will love it!

of body weight lost). There’s also a big $$ pot involved! Winning team gets all the dinero. awesome. So, this challenge goes through november into early december- just in time for christmas. it’s actually pretty good because i figure if i lose weight before the holidays, i’m more likely to be good come party time. also being with a team of 3 people that i don’t know (who are really competitive) will be good peer pressure too- don’t f it up annie!!!

so- my goal is to go to at least 3 classes per week here at work (i’m dropping my health club membership- makes no sense when everything is available here, right?!) and eat lots of veggies and healthy food. just be smart about it, ya know? already i feel like i’ve lost some weight this week just not snacking at work! there are also PLENTY of attractive young males in this office, wouldnt hurt to look and feel my best!!! maybe even pull THIS out for the company holiday party this year?

ho ho ho...literally.


so, for the next 6 weeks i’m going to drink far less (i know i know, it’s tough, but i’m really gonna try), eat less and try and get these flabby arms in shape!! and hopefully come out the other end the better/hotter because of it.

so here’s to not waiting to weigh less! start your own why weight challenge with me if you’d like!



alllll byyyy myselffffff

6 Oct

those canadian pipes belt out dreams.

I really hope when you read this blog post title you sang it in your head like Celine Dion. I know I did. I moved into a new apartment this weekend, which is awesome. And, you guessed it, I’m living all by myself. I could not be MORE excited about this. The one thing that does worry me is my tendency to get bad food and eat it. My downfall comes when I go to the grocery store after work and I’m just starving and have no willpower to say no to things. So, I got some nice advice to help with this: go to the grocery store more often so I can get a little piece of fish or some chicken to cook the next day, and never go to the grocery store hungry. Good point. So, instead of heading there right after work, I should go home and go for a walk or run, have my dinner THEN head to the store for the next day or 2. It’s also an activity to do post-dinner instead of vegging out. Sounds great doesn’t it? We’ll see how I do.

In the meantime, I think I’ll load up my iPod with Celine Dion and run away my weight loss blues to her tranquil Canadian melodies.




22 Sep

Expenses. I lose sleep worrying about them. Why does everything have to cost so much? And to that fact, why do I selfishly crave/need/want have so much stuff?? All this made me re-evaluate my finances since I’m moving into a new apartment in a week and a 1/2. When looking at my checking card/credit card statements (which I normally don’t do because I’m frightened to see what I spend money on) I realized that my spending habits directly relate to my weight- at least I think so. Let me explain.

oh booze...what you do to my wallet.

This past month a majority of my discretionary funds were spent on none other than BOOZE. Sad, but true. Such and such amount at this bar, such and such amount at that liquor store…and granted I’ve had my birthday party and some other parties where I needed to bring booze of some sort (I mean, it’s the best hostess gift you could ever get), but seriously self? I don’t need to spend a majority of my funds on you. Another culprit on the list is FOOD. I mean, WHY do I have to eat out so much? It’s not that I have to, but more that I want to, which I need to get under control. If all I do is drink and eat bad food, what else is left?

So after dissecting my spending habits, I realize that I need to re-prioritize my life. Make exercise a top habit (and I mean, I love being outdoors in the fall!) and do things that maybe do not require booze all the time. I can go out with my friends on a walk, rather than caloric happy hours. Go to a cool art gallery or free music show rather than pay $100 for Lady GaGa (who I’m dying to see, BTW). And I mean, I can just take some shots then head to the bar, right? I don’t have to buy shots or beers for people! I’ll just be less friendly in my “I want you to get to my drunken level so here’s a shot” way, and more friendly in my drunken self way.

Long story short, this journey is not solely about weight loss, but examining the person I am and making strides to accept the parts that are truly me and change the things that I don’t like- such as eating habits and spending habits. Life is so much more than this-  I want to just enjoy my friends and hobbies and not be hung up on this bullshit. So, I’ll keep plugging away, stay positive, and maybe get some ass?



The latest list

21 Sep

Last week, I had my first Weight Watchers meeting.  A ditched me, that piece of shit.  JK.  I had ditched her.  But now we’ve both gone to our first meeting and are ready to dive in.  I’m excited for the journey and look forward to blogging about it.

However, being the suck-up student I was, I feel it’s more important to work on my first (and only) assignment from the meeting, before I start spilling my feelings about it.

So, after the first meeting, the lovely leader, who had lost over 150 lbs on WW and kept it off for like 10 years, met with me.  She asked me why I was there and joining WW.  She then encouraged me to make a list of 25 reasons why I want to be there.  Most of the lists A and I make are of how many people we’ve boned, how many states we’ve boom-boomed in, you know, classy shit like that.  But, this is the meat and potatoes of the drawstrings to g-strings journey, so here goes:

1. I want to be skinnier than I am now, but I’m not unhappy or really unhealthy.  But, I DO NOT want to get any bigger.  So, I’m here to figure out a healthy lifestyle that I can carry with me.  Maybe that can count for 2 things.  We’ll see how this goes.

2. I never want to be obese.  Obese is an ugly word.  I’m technically not obese, but I am overweight.  Let’s make sure I NEVER get there.

3. I want my hot future husband to not have to settle for a non-hottie.

4. I want to confidently wear a bikini.

5. I want to be the hot friend, not just the fun or funny or nice friend.  I love being that friend, but I’m ok with throwing the hot one in there too 😉

6. I don’t want to turn to food when I’m stressed or sad.

7. Or on that note, to celebrate or reward myself.  I would like food to be something I enjoy, but doesn’t need to stress me out.

8. I want to run around the lakes in little spandex shorts or just a sports bra.

9. I want to be a yoga instructor as a side job, when I’m a teacher.

10. I don’t want my appearance or my weight to be my crutch as to what is “holding me back”

11. I want to wear clothes sizes that are only one digit.

12. I want to be proud of who I am.

13. I want to always love myself.

14. I want to turn heads when I walk into a room.

15. I want to run a half marathon under two hours.

16. I want to live an active lifestyle.

17. I never want to be out of breath after walking up stairs.

18. I don’t want a muffin top.

19. I want to wear low rise jeans.

20. I want to be able to sit on a man’s lap and not feel self-conscious.

21. I want to overcome an obstacle that I’ve faced my entire life.

22. I want to inspire a healthy lifestyle in those around me.

23. I want to have a focus and a reason for my actions (eating and exercising).

24. I want to make sure the world sees me as I see me.

25. I want to be the kick-ass sexy bitch I know I am.




21 Sep

i saw a beautiful, beautiful thing today. i was NOT motivated to go running and instead decided to go through more stuff for my big move coming up. i really REALLY regret it and don’t think i’ll skip running again any time soon. but to inspire me just that much more, i saw this video.

wow. talk about amazing. i want to make this video in a year!! to be inspired and just keep running until i love it and can’t go a day without it. already i’m feeling the connection and slight addiction to it which is great, but i want to run longer and harder and faster….i want to run this half marathon and be inspired to keep running, do another, and do better!!! so, keep your hopes up and just know that every little workout is helping you be HAPPY and get in shape (and feel good naked).